Can't find my spam in Outlook 2003 - it isn't in the junk or anti spam folder - where is it?

Recently I am unable to find my spam.  it is no longer in the junk email folder and there is no antispam folder.  I have internet security 18.6.0.29.  all of a sudden - I could not find the spam emails.  i update constantly.  if I mark an email as spam - it disappears.  I do have the antispam tool bar and I already tried to reconfigure it by unchecking the outlook box in configure, restarting and rechecking it.  If I empty the antispam folder the emails go into my deleted items folder - but where are they before that???  thanks!